New Year-anxiety syndrome

I don't know if any of you have suffered from this weird feeling which occurs in my brain usually just before the beginning of the year.
It's like in a song of my favourite Candian Jew (new German) hip-hop musician GONZALES. Feeling that we are on the road to nowhere and no matter what we do we will still feel out of place. One quote from a review of one of his albums: "This Canadian born Berlin based Jewish mc prankster sweats a profuse stain of hip-hop in with electro cabaret, a symphony of backstage sleaze all covered in hair and melody."
Just before coming back to the city of "1000 faces"-NYC, some sample of my favourite MC verbal skills:):

1000 faces, too many to describe
The first one that I tried Was a mask that I wore on the outside
It was so raw, it was so raw
And it brought such sympathy
Out of everyone who saw Sweet sympathy
But all except for one
One face I looked for pity, and there was none
It was so base, it was so base
And I had to have it I had to steal that face
1000 Faces I've seen them all before
1000 Faces And still 1000 more
1000 Faces Could one of them be yours?
1000 Faces And I know them all on a first-name basis
1000 Faces and evey day there's more
They take your places unlike anything before
I got no memories, one collective one mind
I got the stories, the ones you couldn't find
Every rotation, 333
Every notation bows its head and nods to me
Every mutation, this house we made we sold
I push it further
Push it further a thousand fold
1000 cases of blood against the wall
Breaking bottlenecks, leaving rim's encrusted form
Cut into the life lime, on a palm that's hand in hand
When the top's removed the liquid left expands
From the turtleneck of toads to the lotus on the pond
Skipping over stones to the beat skin of the drum,
Smoke a sleep lullaby-bye